This word happens to be my best friend ever since I became a person. It is the only thing I can hold on to whenever I can’t do anything about any situation I had.
I learned to trust God ever since I became a Christian. This gave me strength and boldness to face every challenge I have.
Now, I deeply need this. I also need His grace to overcome this fear. I don’t know how should I call this but, it’s a fear of the future (I guess so). I want to replace this fear with faith and trust with God.I trusted God in everything I do. There’s just one thing that I trusted God but it seems like God wants me to grow there, and I keep on shunning it. I tell him that I need more time. BUT He keeps on telling me, “it’s TIME! Trust me on this!”…
I remembered Finding Nemo. I learned a lot from that movie even though I have watched that a hundred times. Dory reminded me on how God wants me to be. He wants me to be that free flowing person with a child-like spirit. I was like that before.
What happened?
I suddenly become an adult, with responsibilities and feeling mature. But I AM NOT. I don’t know why. But I am now asking God to give me that child-like spirit again. I want to regain my faith-like-a-child status. I want to be like when I first started to put my faith in Jesus. I want to trust Him now. waaa.. I’m torn.
This is what I am thinking right now. I want to obey, but I keep on thinking my present situation for my future. It just doesn’t fit. But God is constantly reminding me, “Liza, trust me on this”.
I know I can do it. I thank God for people who are helping me with this walk and reminding me what God’s word is.
I just need to obey and trust him more, just like a child.
